I watched Secret millionaire last night and was once again reminded of how lucky I am to have everythinh I have, after my failed IVF I have been down and sad thinking only of myself and how much it hurts. Yes the hurt is still there especially on special days like Mothersday and my birthday but I am making an effort to move out of this bitter state. My hubby pointed out that I have been bitter and nasty and that it is not an endearing quality so I am really trying ....... yes it is so hard escpecially when I see prggies women and think - will that ever be me.Doesn't help that 2 ladies are preggies at work so I have to hear about their cramps vomiting and every thing else. All I can think about is - WISH IT WAS ME !
Read such a beautiful tread on the fertilicare site by Bratty's husband , it had me in tears as I did not comprehend how my husband must be feeling got so caught up in my own feelings. I now feel so self absorbed ..... Gotto work on thinking about everyone around me.
A friend sent me this e-mail today , so fitting with me feelings today.
Things are to be used, but People are to be loved.
Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become
actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits they
become character; Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.
FROM MY LIPS TO GOD'S EARS : PLEASE HELP ME THINK OF OTHERS AROUND ME, PLEASE MAKE ALL THE BITTER THOUGHTS FADE AWAY SO THAT I CAN MOVE ON .....
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Hi Jen
ReplyDeleteCongrats on your blog!
Don't worry too much about the bitter thoughts, getting over a failed IVF is very hard and I think it's okay to give yourself some space to grieve. You will heal over time and I hope you get all the love and support you need while you recover.
Looking to getting to know you through your blog. :)
Lesley (Richardsl from FC)
Hi Jennie.....sometimes husbands are real Gems...just need to polish them every now and again...smile.
ReplyDeleteI know it is difficult to be on that TTC train...
Thinking of you
Hi, Just discovered your blog.
ReplyDeleteIt takes time to overcome those nasty nasty feelings, but the time must be taken. It will all be okay on the other side of them. (((HUGS)))